For the past seven years of my life, I have played Violin. The next years of my life may change a bit now.
A couple nights ago, my family and I sat at the dinner table. We were discussing that if I want to quit violin, I have to tell my Violin Teacher, Kathryn tonight. I was supposed to tell her a month ago, but kept putting it off. I felt like I was letting her down. I felt like I was letting my mom’s parents down because of how much they loved to here me play. I felt like I was letting my strings teacher down because I was the concert master in our strings class. After a long talk with my parents, I gathered up the courage to make that phone call. When Kathryn answered, I explained. “School isn’t becoming a priority and violin was just making me stressed out.” I said. Kathryn apologized. I felt like I should have been the one apologizing.
The last two years I have spent with Kathryn were amazing. The lessons were fun! A lot of my friends couldn’t understand how I survived an hour and a half lesson twice a week when they couldn’t stand an hour long strings class. But when exams were coming up, and soccer tournaments, and track races, I lost it. I didn’t practice for the recital. I took my tiredness, frustration, and stress out on violin. It could’ve been soccer or track, but it was violin.
In the end, I felt like a wight had been lifted off my shoulders. I spent a lot of time thinking of what I was going to say to her. I’m glad I told Kathryn, and not my parents because in my life at some point I will have to let people down, and this was good practice.