I’m not amazing at math. I maintained a B average throughout this year, and pretty much bombed the final exam. You may be wondering why I am making all of these facts about my math public? Well it’s because this year I learned that math is more than just adding and subtracting numbers, and calculating percents. Math is about mindset and confidence, and I probably would have done so much better this year if I didn’t focus so much on the math problems, but also on how I approach those problems. Math is a step-by-step process and if you can’t pass step one without freaking out, you will never make it to the last step.
I always started reviewing for math tests and exams at least two weeks before, and until the test, every night I would do some questions in areas I wasn’t confident in. But as soon as I sat down in the exam room for my final exam and the test was placed on my desk, it felt like everything I had learned this past year had was lost. I should have taken a few deep breathes, not worry about getting a perfect score. All I could think was “Get an A, get an A”. I sped through the test, and I actually felt pretty good about it when I walked out of the exam room. But a week later, I received my exam and was nothing but disappointed. I wanted to prove to everyone that I was more than a B student in math, but I obviously wouldn’t achieve an A on my final report card if I couldn’t get a good score on my exam. I would be lucky to get a B.
That final exam wasn’t the only occasion that I had freaked myself out and panicked during a math test, it happens almost every time. I am not confident in math. It is the one thing at school that I am afraid of. Numbers are little monsters that won’t function in my head. I need to find a way to approach number problems with the confidence to solve them. My parents, friends and math teachers have taught me that I’m not bad at math. I understand all the concepts, I show that I can solve problems during class time. But as soon as it’s a test and worth part of our grade, I panic and freak out. Next year in math I am going to be confident. I don’t care if I get another B, I just want to be able to show my full potential on tests.